Fatherless

I started this blog to be very personal about not only my life, but the experiences that I have gone through. I want all of my readers to know more about me and my life, so that whatever they are going through they have someone to relate to. I titled this blog fatherless because I like too much of the population grew up fatherless. My dad was around when I was younger until my parents got a divorce and when that happened it seemed like I never saw him again. My mom would always ask me if I would want to talk to my father and of course my answer would be No. I was so angry and hurt that he wasn't around during my years of being a teen. Those are the times when you need your father more than anything. To teach you how to be a man, how to be responsible, and how to grow up in to be the man God created you to be. I never had that and for so long I held this deep dark demon in my heart that hated my father. I remember distinctly in high school when I was asked many times by different people, "Is your dad Mike Singletary the football coach?". I was so embarrassed and hurt that I didn't have the "ideal" family with a dad around that I would often tell people that he was my dad. Don't get me wrong I was never ashamed of my mom and the hard work that she put in to deal with my brother and I growing up. But, every kid needs a father figure in their lives and a mother can't be the role of both parents as hard as they try. I was fortunate enough to have my grandpa around as well as my Uncle Chris who really taught me what it takes to be a man. My uncle passed away in April of 2009 and I miss him very much, but I am glad that he was around to help me grow into the man that I am today. I now have my step father Hawk Carter who has become a father to my brother and I. He has been to a lot of basketball games and football games for us both as well as teaching us how to be responsible. It wasn't until later I found out that when I thought I was fatherless as a young kid, all along I had a father. Someone that I could always turn to and talk to whenever I needed advice or needed guidance. Someone who was watching over me and helping me to be the man that I was created to be. God was and always will be my father and I'm sad that it took me so long to realize how truly blessed I am to have a father like that. So to all of you out there growing up and feeling the same way I was when I was younger, just remember that you are not "fatherless." You are not alone. God is and always will be there for you in your time of need and in him we can do great things beyond our own imagination. I hope that this helps some of you out and gives you a look into my life.